Shawn Mendes is opening up about insecurities surrounding his sexuality being questioned.
In a December cover story for Rolling Stone, the 20-year-old Canadian heartthrob reveals the gossip surrounding his personal life causes him a lot of stress and anxiety – so much that he feels pressured to dispel rumors.
“I’d like to say I don’t care about it, but that’s not true,” he says, referencing “this massive, massive thing for the last five years about me being gay.”
Mendes addressed speculation in 2016 through a series of Snapchat stories. (“I noticed a lot of people were saying I gave them a ‘gay vibe.’ First of all, I’m not gay. Second of all, it shouldn’t make a difference if I was or wasn’t.”) However, the video only intensified scrutiny and his need to prove critics wrong.
“In the back of my heart, I feel like I need to go be seen with someone – like a girl – in public, to prove to people that I’m not gay,” Mendes says. “Even though in my heart I know that it’s not a bad thing. There’s still a piece of me that thinks that. And I hate that side of me.”
He continues: “I had this thought: ‘I have to get paparazzied with someone. Who am I gonna get? I’m not relevant.”
The “In My Blood” singer talks about his relationship with Hailey Baldwin, revealing that the two were more than just friends: “I don’t even wanna put a title on it. I think it was more of a zone of limbo.”
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Mendes and Baldwin attended the 2018 Met Gala together, even holding hands at the event. But Baldwin was engaged to Justin Bieber a month later following their whirlwind romance.
Still, Mendes says he has no hard feelings.
“I texted Hailey, ‘Congratulations,’ and I really am happy for them,” he says. “She’s still one of the (expletive) coolest people ever – she’s not just a beautiful person visually, but she’s one of the most beautiful hearts I’ve ever met.”
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After the cover story published, Mendes took to his Twitter account Monday to say “sometimes the positive side of a story doesn’t always get fully told and I wish it had here.”
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Source : https://www.usatoday.com/story/life/people/2018/11/26/shawn-mendes-feels-pressured-prove-hes-not-gay/2118877002/